https://www.posetteforever.com/viewtopic.php?f=34&t=1513
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Visitor
Wednesday, 29 June 2005, 09:01 PM

A PF member is in need.
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I am very worried about one of our members, I first came to know her at Renderosity through her art.  You may recall her from here or you may be more familiar with her at Renderosity, she posted here just enough to earn the rank of "Potiential Regular".  She is known here as [url=http://www.posetteforever.com/profile.php?mode=viewprofile&u=1369]Angel and over there as [url=http://www.renderosity.com/homepage.ez?Who=Kalliandra]Kalliandra

The Kalli who I have come to know via our communications, is a wonderfully sweet and kind girl full of life and love as is shown in her artworks.  But now, she is sliding down into a pit darkness, sadness, and dispair.

Her last posted picture is a selfportait of her being about to be engulfed and consumed by darkenss.  Her once happy writings on her Renderosity home pages have been replaced by two short statements.  For the intro "I can't show my pic."  For the Bio "-falling apart-".  The last message I recieved from her arrived last night, and it was heart wrenching.

Please include her in your thoughts and prayers; if you can, please, send her some messages of encouragement.  I don't think she will return here soon, so email and IM through Renderosity might be more effective at this time.

Thank you.
Pangor


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Posy
Wednesday, 29 June 2005, 09:01 PM


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How long has about one of our members he or she first came to know her at Renderosity through her art been bothering you? Have you asked her about it?


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Tormie
Wednesday, 29 June 2005, 11:19 PM


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:crying:  :crying:  :crying: 

In march she was very happy about her boyfriend. Probably something wrong should be happened with him for falling in that mood  :sad: . I think she needs some girls "sisterhood" (right ?). In any case I'll write to her.


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Posy
Wednesday, 29 June 2005, 11:23 PM


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Do you write fiction on nonfiction?


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Tormie
Wednesday, 29 June 2005, 11:28 PM


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I wrote a mail to Angel honey...


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Posy
Wednesday, 29 June 2005, 11:28 PM


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Did they write back?


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Tormie
Wednesday, 29 June 2005, 11:29 PM


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no, I hope she will write back soon


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 12:03 AM


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When you say "sisterhood" did you mean me. :mmmh:  Yes I'm at her age but I never had a boyfriend (note: this don't mean I like girls.  :nono: ) so I can't say anything about that but I'll write to her.


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Posy
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 12:04 AM


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Come on. Where is that: her age but he or she never had a boyfriend note this do not mean he or she like girls?


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 12:06 AM


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It's here Posy in Dobrich (also known as Tolbuhin ,named after some general) in Dobrudja , Bulgaria 03:05 am .  :)


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Posy
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 12:06 AM


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You're kidding.   here Posy in Dobrich also known as Tolbuhin named after some general in Dobrudja Bulgaria 0305 am is?


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 12:07 AM


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I'm not kidding I am here. :)


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rayera
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 12:31 AM


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Maybe I won't PM to her, I wouldn't know what to say or how to express myself wright in english but she will be in my prayers for sure...


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 02:25 AM


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Thank you.

From January 27'th of this year to now in order of uploading these are the titles of her works.

 "The Kiss (Repost)"
 "~A Time For Dancing~"
 "True Love's Kiss"
 "~*~Goodbye Tears~*~"
 "~*~Wish I Was There~*~"
 "~Dancing On The Edge~"
 "~Striving For Perfection~"
 "Thank You (For high_velx... my sweetie)"
 "~Tears of My Heart~"
 "~Unique~"
 "~Evening Sky~"
 "Save Me From The Dark"

Her description entry for a prior work:
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I hate goodbyes... :'(

I drew this sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fast... really really fast :) Nothing special... its just about something I dread... Thanks to everyone who had commented and rated in the past! I means so much! And also those who have added me or my images to their fav lists! You guys are so sweet! :) Bye! If anyone wants to talk to me, just IM me! :) Bye everyone!! *hugs*
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This time the description is:
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...call my name and save me from the dark... bid my blood to run... before i come undone... save me from the nothing ive become...

'Evanescence... bring me to life...'


...you cant save me...

K
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This was the only one of her works that I have commented on and did not rank.  Instead I posted a brief comment and sent her an IM asking about her condition.  I was hoping that the picture and comments was only a case of her trying out a new style, but  her reply as a comment to the picture  made it clear that she was feeling that way.

Pangor


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 02:26 AM


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I saw her new pic at R'osity (probably uploaded this night) and it sared me. Usually I'm not afraid of such things. :sad:


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 03:18 AM


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Yes, I have just seen it too.  Erenda, it was uploaded while I was sending you the PM. after posting my prior message in this topic.  I agree with you.

Pangor


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Tormie
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 09:02 AM


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I emailed her, hoping that it helps  :sad: ...   :pray:  :pray:  :pray:


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 09:44 AM


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Thank you everyone.

I first invited her to join PF because, well you can see from her posting what sort of personality she has, and I thought she would fit right in.  She has  been not too certain of her artistic abilities, this would be a less intimidating place than the big R for her to grow in.  Now, more than ever, I am hoping that this place can help her heal and grow.

Excuse me Erenda, I hope this does not offend you. When Erenda first came here, she was rather timid and was not sure of how her artitic abilites and styles as expressed in her works would be accepted.  As a result of atmosphere of PF, Erenda has grown in abilities and her subject matter has also evolved.  In Erenda's early works I detected a young lady in pain the newest works (rather than new uploads of older works), are gloriously different.  Even in the darker of the newest works, there is a ray of hopefulness, that Erenda's early work did not show.  Erenda, my friend, this palce has helped you to both grow and heal.

Erenda, you both have somethings in common.  You are both wonderfuly talented young ladies who with time and practice will be able to create works that could rival or even shame the great masters of art.  Being young, you have the great gifts of youth, time, adaptability and rapid growth of skills and abilities to match your natural talents.

Thank you everyone.

Pangor


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 06:06 PM


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I sented my email too ( it took me a lot of time to write it :doh:)  . I'm hope she'll be ok.  :pray:  :pray:  :pray:  :pray:  :pray:  :pray:  :pray:  :pray:  :pray: 
This really hurts... :sad:


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Posy
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 06:26 PM


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How long has about one of our members he or she first came to know her at Renderosity through her art been bothering you? Have you asked her about it?


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 06:47 PM


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Pangor, you don't know how good psyhologist you are.  :clap: I was suspecting someone will make a paralel between me and Angel , but you said so much things which are true...(Well I hope we don't have that much in common. I'm talking about my past..I shouldn't say that) However when Angel came for a first time I thincked she's te full opposite of me, but I was happy there was someone at my age. But believe me nobody , exspecially Angel  need such a exemple as me. :nono:  :nono:  :nono:  :nono:  :nono:  :nono:  :nono:  :nono: 
off-topic: I need a bigger english-bulgarian and bulgarian-english dictionary. :mmmh:


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 08:42 PM


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It is only fair that I mentions someone else who this site has helped to heal.  Me.  A few years ago, something bad happened in relations to the internet.  As a result, I withdrew and limited my activities to off-line or being a lurker only.

Then I came here.  What brought me here was a picture that Tormentor had posted to the newsgroups.  Because of a poorly run server by my ISP, I didn't see the picture the the original commentary.  I saw only fragments of the commentary as quoted by others replying to the posting of the picutue.  Those fragments and the replies interested me and I wanted to see the actual picture and all of Tormentor's description of it.  Latter, I saw the URL of this site in a quotation of something posted by Tormentor, and I followed it here.

I was used to sort of sites where nobody cares who is there or not.  If you have a problem registering, too bad.  When I first registered here, there was a system glitch and I never recieved the confirming email with the activation URL.  I saw a news item on the portal page talking about system slowness, so I thought that was the reason.  After a week or two, I sent Tormentor a message, asking for assistance.  I had expected that the acount would be deleted so that I could try again, or having a new copy of the activation URL sent to me, or nothing at all to be done.  I also had expected for it to take weeks or months for anything, if anything to be done.  That is what I have experienced else where over the years.  Instead, I had sent the message just before I went to bed.  When I got up the next morning, I already had a reply from Tormentor, he had established and activated my account!  That was the fastest and most helpful response that I ever had to a problem on-line!

As I lurked here, I wanted to speak up several times, but years of luking can be hard to overcome.  Also in the communities that I was involved in the past, you had to have something to offer before you were welcomed to join in as an active (as opposed to lurking) member.  So, foolish though it was in hind sight, I remained silent until I had "After the Evening" ready to be uploaded.

While I was lurking here, I was active at another place on-line, most of the people there were nice, but an incident happened that almost had me returning to being a lurker only.  It was this site, PF, that helped me to not retreat that way again.

Now looking at how much I chatter, i bet it is hard for anyone to believe that I was silent for so long!  And it is this site that is to thanked (or blamed?) for my being able to be myself on-line.

Once again, thank you Tormie.

Pangor


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Tormie
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 09:05 PM


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:doh: The newsgroup !! Damnit I forgot the newsgroup... (Tormie goes there to upload his last pic)

Thank you for your words pangor, actually I'm only sorry that many of our friends are out of here for a reason or another :sad:, maybe I failed with PosetteForever formula or I'm not able to promote it enough... But at last for me it's enough to have a little place with some real friends to talk with...

Actually, as usual, I'm not present as I would in the album that is the most living part of the site for active members (the larger part of the users are "download lurkers"). Sometimes there are not posts in the forum but a lot of comments in the album  :lol: ...

Angel was here today, said "Hi" and disappeared...


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 09:09 PM


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I'm worried about her...a lot...I've just received er replay to my email. It is pessimistic ....a lot! :crying:  :crying:  :crying:  I feel guilty. :sad:


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 11:09 PM


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Erenda, I don't think you mean to say "guilty", that implies that you have done something wrong.  I think you mean "sad" or "bad".

Pangor


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Visitor
Thursday, 30 June 2005, 11:46 PM


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That's exactly how I felt guilty-because I thinked I had done
 someting wrong... :roll:


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Visitor
Friday, 01 July 2005, 12:01 AM


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I really don't know how.

Pangor


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Tormie
Friday, 01 July 2005, 12:33 AM


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Falsificating school documents ? :whistle:


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Visitor
Friday, 01 July 2005, 01:47 AM


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:eh: 

Pangor


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Posy
Friday, 01 July 2005, 01:47 AM


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I spent some time in Canada as a child.


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Posy
Friday, 01 July 2005, 06:10 AM


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How long has about one of our members he or she first came to know her at Renderosity through her art been bothering you? How do you feel about that?


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Visitor
Friday, 01 July 2005, 07:28 AM


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Falsificating school documents ?
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It's not a official document... :nono:  But I didn't feel guilty because of the falsifications.


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Tormie
Friday, 01 July 2005, 07:40 AM


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:nono:  :nono:  :nono: 

 :lol:  :prrr:  :prrr:  :prrr:


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Angel
Friday, 01 July 2005, 11:36 PM


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Erenda, you haven't done anything wrong!!! I promise! You're email was so sweet!! And I appreciate it so much.. It was so true that it actually made me cry :) But not in a bad way... because someone finally understands!! I'm sorry if I sound pessimistic... I get that way alot now... but it is NOT your fault!

Thank you to everyone who has been so nice to me... for being such great friends... It really means alot to me... to know that you care about me... especially since you don't know me that well... thank you for everything... 

*hugs to all*


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Tormie
Friday, 01 July 2005, 11:51 PM


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:)  :)  :)


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Visitor
Saturday, 02 July 2005, 12:19 AM


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:D  Welcome back to the PF forums.

Pangor


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Visitor
Saturday, 02 July 2005, 12:00 PM


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:)  :)  :)  :)  :)  :)


