https://www.posetteforever.com/viewtopic.php?f=34&t=472&p=4088#p4088
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Deviant_Viking
Sunday, 09 November 2003, 11:31 PM


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Dealing with myself. With my depressions, my flip-of-a-dime changing mood and obscure, irrational worries and fears, all which I'm getting so tired of.
Churning out some pictures under the influence of this mood, which makes me think 'Jesus, you're one fucked-up and miserable person' when I look at them.
Trying to take a step back from poser, as I spend too much time it and not enough on other stuff, and because I'm getting tired of it all.
Feeling powerless as I have a friend who's going through hard times, but whom I can virtually do nothing for as she's in america, and I really want to be there for her.
Contemplating over people I liked and cared about, but who decided to cut me out of their lives, or never let me in in the first place. People might say things like they're not worth of having as friends then, but it still doesn't change the fact I miss them.

Just fearing and doubting and being sick and tired of it all.
So sick of feeling like a damn drama queen all the time.
Just want to lie down and rot away, but I can't.

Bah..