https://www.posetteforever.com/viewtopic.php?f=34&t=3985&p=45291#p45291
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ahjah
Monday, 20 May 2019, 11:22 PM

Re: How things are going
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:hug2: Hello Davide

Good to hear from you, even if it's not good news.
We never met in person, but I'm pretty sure, you're not a "coward", whatever this should be. I never got the concept anyway. You shouldn't put yourself down. I never managed to have children and a family, either. I never build a house, not even planted a tree, I never did a bungee jump or stuff like this. Still, I consider myself a strong person. I fought alcohol addiction (29 years sober now), I made lot's of music, I did much less harm to our ecosystem than average people, never owned a car, never traveled by plane, but I made a lot more people happy than sad. There's nothing to touch or look at, but this is what I'm proud of and you should be too.
We struggle every day, we fall, we get up again, solve problems, create new ones doing so. That's human. That's life. That's how it's supposed to be. If all this is over one day, that's what we call death and it seems a pretty boring place to me. :hug2:

About the future of Posetteforever, Even if the costs for this don't seem high. I'm not able to contribute. I'm on early retirement, and that's about the poorest state to be here in Germany. I have a roof over my head and don't have to starve, but not much more.

To be honest I have often thought of quitting the job here over the last months.
It's about the only reason I still keep a computer. I'm tired of what the www has become like, and old enough to know life is possible without, and the REAL things have to be done in REAL life, still.
So I'm not sure if I want to go on like this, or look at it as a chance to drop out, too.

I don't want to decide this right now, and have to sleep it over. After all PF is kind of home and family to me since sixteen years now. This is no easy decision...