#4 MondoJake 09 Nov 2003 03:14
Going to try and answer "What Is Happening", not sure it will work. The last several posts I have tried, were 'no go'...don't know if problem is my end or Posy is mad at me!!
I have been doing a bit of beta testing on 82 Koshini eye textures for CraigBic over at sexymustard.com [Koshini Klub - Rendrosity store site] and other than that nothing is happening on the Mondo Express Computer. I am in a 'video watching-no Poser production' rut right now.
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#8 guiltypleasures 09 Nov 2003 20:00
I'm still here, just been trying to get real life straightened out some. Mass paperwork that needed doing and the normal "kids driving me crazy" stuff. I also was working on two halloween contests over at the dna site (one of which I won 4th prize on yippie!! :)
I also was asked to beta test something for someone at Poser pros, which really was a nice surprise for me. I've never done any beta testing before and I hope I did an okay job for that person.
I have tried a few times to log on here, but something kept happening and I wasn't able to, might have been during the great changes around here. Also I tried to post a picture but it says my acct is too full and I have to remove some of my artwork before I can add more. If that's the case I'll take a look and flush some of it down the crapper soon so I can post more of my sh.... ahh stuff! lol
Tormentor, this new design is really cool, a big thumbs up from me on all your hard work! :clap:
Den, gee I missed ya, maybe next time you stop by eh! :)
Ozy you need to work less and play more!
Ken get your butt in here and smile more, I miss ya bud [-X
Mosca, if your Lord of the Frogs, maybe I can kiss you and turn you into a prince? :lmao:
All the rest of you just be good and don't eat all the tuna tarts okay? :bigrinnin:
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#9 Deviant_Viking 09 Nov 2003 23:31
Dealing with myself. With my depressions, my flip-of-a-dime changing mood and obscure, irrational worries and fears, all which I'm getting so tired of.
Churning out some pictures under the influence of this mood, which makes me think 'Jesus, you're one fucked-up and miserable person' when I look at them.
Trying to take a step back from Poser, as I spend too much time it and not enough on other stuff, and because I'm getting tired of it all.
Feeling powerless as I have a friend who's going through hard times, but whom I can virtually do nothing for as she's in america, and I really want to be there for her.
Contemplating over people I liked and cared about, but who decided to cut me out of their lives, or never let me in in the first place. People might say things like they're not worth of having as friends then, but it still doesn't change the fact I miss them.
Just fearing and doubting and being sick and tired of it all.
So sick of feeling like a damn drama queen all the time.
Just want to lie down and rot away, but I can't.
Bah..
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Even forever must come to an end. I think...
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#11 guiltypleasures 09 Nov 2003 23:41
I think your just having PMS and once you go though the change it will all be better Ken :)
Really though, have you tried talking to someone about the way your feeling? If your in school, isn't there a counsler there to talk with? If not, maybe a family doctor? You sound very depressed and that's not good, but at least you also see how your feeling and now you just need to figure out what's causing it. I've been there, and it's no fun and it can really only get worse if you don't find the cause and try and get it fixed. You know you have friends here and I for one am willing to lend an ear. I don't know that I'm qualified to help, but sometimes just letting it all out can be helpful. I do recommend you talk to someone that is qualified though, it may help you sort out all these feelings. As for your friends who have distanced themselves from you, have you tried talking to them to find out why they have done this?
Please don't distance yourself from people who do care :)
Always,
GP
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#12 Tormie 10 Nov 2003 01:19
Here in Europe and/or in Norway I think that a "counsler" does not exist. Also in universities you are left alone.
I can understand how do you feel DV, when I had your same age I passed a lot of periods like yours, probably for the same reasons plus problems in my family.
I have to say that only after my period in the army I could have looked at the things happening around me in a different perspective and changed completely my friendship and the kind of people I used to meet. I don't know if it was good or bad, because I think that I constructed a barrier made of cynism around me, but it helped me a lot to find the way to live better, and even if the life I live today is not what I dreamed when I was a boy I am satisfied and I can say I'm living well with myself.
I'm not saying you've to enlist yourself in the "legion etranger", but I think you've to meet people of a different kind: if you frequent every damn day the people who cut you out of their lives your depression will grow.
:bigrinnin: I would tell how I left some of my old friends:
One saturday night we decided to go to eat a pizza in a restaurant very far from the town where we used to meet, and (as usual) we had to go there with my car. So we went there, eaten well and abundantly... And suddenly I decided that they were not the kind of people I like and I would not see them anymore... So I said : "Ohps, I forgot my wallett in the car, I will go to take it and be back in minutes...", then I went to the car and run away alone (and without paying the lunch). From that time I began to frequent a different kind of people.
I'm not saying that you have to be bastard-inside or cynic like me but when your feelings are not reciprocate to you, you are only loosing your time and probably you will fall deeper in your depression.
Anyway, apart from the probably useless words I wrote, you know that here you can have some help, I think that the fact that we are virtually anonymous (it's difficult that we will meet and in any case we will not live in the same context every day) is an advantage because one can wrote freely his/her thoughts and it could be very helpful.
I hope you'll fell better very soon.
For the rest, Hi GP! I made an error with the gallery configuration (as usual :oops: ), WheelChair said it to me or I never noticed the error :whistle: , Now it should be ok. In any case I'm waiting for the poll results in order to keep the new or the old gallery, you all decide.
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#15 guiltypleasures 10 Nov 2003 01:28
:lmao: :lmao: :lmao: :lmao: :lmao: :lmao: :clap: Posy!!!!!
Go on Tormie, give her your credit card # we want to go shopping for some naughty things :bigrinnin:
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